10-3-10 - "Be Well"
Beyond just the physical aspects of having a newborn – lack of sleep, biochemistry havoc, healing from a c-section – I was miserable. I knew I needed to do something to feel better, but I didn’t know where to start. The experience reminded me of a time I decided I wanted to wear a necklace I had loved when I was much younger. I went searching for the necklace to find it entangled with a bunch of other jewelry that hadn’t been worn in years. The jewelry was so entangled that I considered giving up. Where to even start with that mess? And did I really need to wear that necklace? Now it seemed my hormones and the rest of my body were a tangled up mess and I didn’t know where to begin. I started the same way you loosen jewels – patiently, gently, persistently.
Finding supportive health professionals has been a key component – although frustrating at times – to my overall wellbeing. I remember thinking, “it does not matter where you start, just start.” However, when you are miserable it is extremely difficult to “start”. Western trained medical professionals tend to find many of us frustrating simply because all testing will yield nothing in terms of explaining our symptoms. The information provided in “within normal limits” sucks when you’re suffering. And while I am generally a fan of research – how many 4’ 11” females do you think they include in those studies to generate data regarding “normal limits”. I had to keep searching for the support I needed. My advice is that while the way to a peaceful existence is an inward journey – be persistent and thoughtful when building your support system. Your answers are within you, AND it can be very helpful to have a team of supportive folks helping you discover your own answers.